I've been struggling of late...to get in my workouts...to eat healthy...to just get it all together. As I fitness instruction/personal trainer, it makes me feel like a fake....I'm leading others and I can't even follow my own advice! I keep saying as soon as I get laid off (2 weeks), I'll have lots of time to get back on the wagon....to start over! Starting over depresses me....I think back a year ago to my photo shoot and how I looked....grrrrrr...why did I let it all go??
And then I thought a bit more about it. And I came up with a couple of things:
I think I burnt myself out - I was working multiple jobs and juggling training with it
I started a new fulltime job - trying to figure out a new schedule and then having food (and not that healthy) at my fingertips was too easy some days
I didn't really have any goals that I was training for. Yes...I had the half marathon in October...but that was more running training than anything else.
Then I heard a podcast from Fit2Fat2Fit, and I started to rethink things. The message was...Don't tell yourself you are starting over...that's a negative message to send yourself...instead...tell yourself you will do better! And I don't need to wait until I'm laid off to start doing better. This weekend I decided to start doing better and went to 2 bootcamp classes. It was great to see some of my fit family again and to not give up just because I was being pushed a little bit.
I find when I start working out again that my food options seem to fall into place...you know that whole thing about fueling your body properly! It's kind of a vicious circle.
I know...I know...it's the holidays and there will be tons of food that will tempt me...and that I might indulge in...but my direction is simple....to do better! I'm making it a goal to get at least 20 minutes of exercise in 6 days per week....that's my goal....but I'm not going to beat myself up if I don't hit it.
So there you have it....I'm not starting over....I'm simply going to do better on my health and wellness journey!!!
Starting over is HARD. I like the idea of reframing that into "doing better". I guess there's a benefit to having a fresh start, but that's different from totally starting from scratch!
ReplyDeleteI know you can get back on track and do better!
Hey I'm just seeing this post! You still look amazing don't be fooled by your own perception of yourself, I fall into that trap too. Lately I've been doing my workouts either immediately after school or early in the morning on the weekend so I can't put it off/omit it all together. It's helping me out with staying on track.
ReplyDeleteGood way to look at things. (Great back muscles by the way).
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